My name is Cim

My Journey

My soul mission in this life is to awaken and remember the blessings of being a woman. This has not come easy in my own life, as soul missions often come with the perfectly orchestrated challenges to take us on the journey needed for healing and learning.

With a unstable upbringing and traumas I’ve been disconnected from my body, my emotions, my pleasure and my yoni for a big part of my life. As most of us.

At 21 I found myself in deep depression, with anxiety, panic attacks and hard time breathing, eating and sleeping. This catapulted me into studying psychology, trauma healing and arts. Through many therapy sessions, a BA in Human Behaviour and maybe hundreds of paintings and self-portraits - I came to understand myself and my past to a degree where it no longer showed up as depression or anxiety.

Still, there was something missing

In my mid 20s I was living a very busy and successful life as a commercial photographer - what I had considered my dream since I was a teenager. I ran my own business, made good money, travelled the world through my work and I bought my own apartment.
On the paper it looked like success, but I was not happy. I was mostly stressed and lost in the constant doing of my life.

There had to be more..

At this time I remember thinking that my sex-life was good, or as good as it could be. I experienced clitorial orgasms with toys or in the shower, but they happened more rarely with partners. But I’ve heard that some women never orgasm, so I thought I was still pretty lucky.

At the same time there was an inner knowing telling me a different story. There was a whisper inside that I would hear from time to time - telling me there was more to experience. I now know, that was my yoni calling me.

At 27, when my saturn returned, I found tantra. It wasn’t a sweet and romantic love story right away for me. My first contact with tantra radically and abruptly showed me my complete lack of knowing my own boundaries, my desires and above all: my yoni.

It was a wake up call.

Returning home

My previous learnings from western psychology, all gained from sitting still either in a school bench or in a therapy armchair - now got replaced with body-lead practices. Tantra, embodiment and somatic practices and healing modalities became my new fascination and passion. I dove in head first in workshops, retreats, courses and books that came my way.

I came to see first hand, how years of talking about my traumas wasn’t enough to create actual long-lasting shifts in myself or in my life. But when I started to be in my body, feel my emotions, move them in my body, and express what had been suppressed - it was like a storm that raged, and then it eased and released. Over the years my life started to look and feel very different.

What guided me on this journey?
My body, my heart and my yoni.

Going from being disconnected to my body and yoni into reconnection was a journey over several years.

And it has the best journey of my life!

To be honest, I some times look back at those years and think to myself
“those where the most epic years” - because this was the time when I found myself, truly. An epic adventure of awakening to more of myself and falling in love with every piece I discovered.

Through reconnecting to my body and yoni - I found myself.