My Journey
My soul mission in this life is to awaken and remember the blessings of being a woman. This has not come easy in my own life, as soul missions often come with the perfectly orchestrated challenges to take us on the journey needed for healing and learning.
With a unstable upbringing and traumas I’ve been disconnected from my body, my emotions, my pleasure and my yoni for a big part of my life. As most of us.
At 21 I found myself in deep depression, with anxiety, panic attacks and hard time breathing, eating and sleeping. This catapulted me into studying psychology, trauma healing and arts. Through many therapy sessions, a BA in Human Behaviour and maybe hundreds of paintings and self-portraits - I came to understand myself and my past to a degree where it no longer showed up as depression or anxiety.
Still, there was something missing
In my mid 20s I was living a very busy and successful life as a commercial photographer - what I had considered my dream since I was a teenager. I ran my own business, made good money, travelled the world through my work and I bought my own apartment.
On the paper it looked like success, but I was not happy. I was mostly stressed and lost in the constant doing of my life.
At this time I remember thinking that my sex-life was good, or as good as it could be. I experienced clitorial orgasms with toys or in the shower, but they happened more rarely with partners. But I’ve heard that some women never orgasm, so I thought I was still pretty lucky.
At the same time there was an inner knowing telling me a different story. There was a whisper inside that I would hear from time to time - telling me there was more to experience. I now know, that was my yoni calling me.
At 27, when my saturn returned, I found tantra. It wasn’t a sweet and romantic love story right away for me. My first contact with tantra radically and abruptly showed me my complete lack of knowing my own boundaries, my desires and above all: my yoni.
It was a wake up call.
There had to be more..
Returning home
My previous learnings from western psychology, all gained from sitting still either in a school bench or in a therapy armchair - now got replaced with body-lead practices. Tantra, embodiment and somatic practices and healing modalities became my new fascination and passion. I dove in head first in workshops, retreats, courses and books that came my way.
I came to see first hand, how years of talking about my traumas wasn’t enough to create actual long-lasting shifts in myself or in my life. But when I started to be in my body, feel my emotions, move them in my body, and express what had been suppressed - it was like a storm that raged, and then it eased and released. Over the years my life started to look and feel very different.
What guided me on this journey?
My body, my heart and my yoni.
From disconnection to
deep embodiment
- the most life-changing journey of my life
Reconnecting with my body and yoni didn’t happen overnight. It unfolded over several years - a messy and beautiful path. And it has truly been the most meaningful journey I’ve ever walked (and keep walking).
I’ve come to know - not just understand, but truly feel - how our bodies hold the answers we seek.
Our systems already know how to heal, where to go, what want so be seen and how to come alive. And the doorway to that wisdom is through our root, our yoni. The lower part of our body is the a sacred portal.
Many spiritual teachings talk about “transcending” the lower chakras - “overcoming” the messiness of being a human. To be free from our needs, desires and ego, in order to reach an elevated state of spirit and love.
While I can understand the intention behind these teachings, they often lead to bypassing and risks taking us further away from fulfilment.
I don’t believe we’re here to escape our human experience - we’re here to embrace it. Staying connected to our lower centers is how we anchor into ourselves, how we come to understand ourselves.
The more I truly see and understand my human,
the more I can embody and live from a state of love.
The more I honor my body, the more I awaken.
What is my mission?
I want all women to fall in love with themselves.
I sometimes say:
when we struggle to love ourselves, its not an issue about love - its an issue about not seeing ourselves fully.
When we see and understand ourselves, there is nothing else but love. Because thats the essence of what we are. So the way back to self, is the same as the way back to love.
I am dedicated to supporting, guiding and inspiring all women to awaken to that love inside. The unique truth of who you are.
And my dear sister, it starts with coming back into our temple.
Our body, our yoni.
The portal into the divine inside of us.
This is why I have created Be a Pussy.
A platform, a movement, a place of resource for women walking their way back home to themselves.
With love from my
heart and yoni to yours